Embracing ourselves fully.

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It’s been four days since my Reiki attunment and the things it is helping me with and clearing out and bringing to the surface has been so incredible. As well as thought provoking and eye opening. Energy healing truly is powerful stuff. More so when I have gotten myself to a place to being open to it helping and changing my life. When I first got attuned to it I was not open to it. So it could not truly help me. Fully. 

Naturally these energies that are swirling around within me, moving things out, and rising up within me, have my thinking about a more pure, innocent time in my life. When I was free to be myself and live my own life. Over the years I lost that joy and innocence. I went from believing in myself and not caring about what the world thought of me, and wanting me to be,  to being stuck in pilot over what the world thought about me. We spend the vast majority of our lives being whom we are told to me, and not what we are meant to be. Or even who we want to be. We spend all our time and energy pleasing everyone else we stop listening to ourselves to please us.  We end up thinking and feeling it’s selfish to take care of ourselves. The thing we tell ourselves. 

Naturally when we stop listening to ourselves we lose that spark and that passion for life. Such was the case for me. I remember a time, vaguely that is, when one of the things I loved, believe it or not, was long division. I remember being really good at it, and could solve those problems very quickly. I used to race the students in my class, and even the teacher. And being the first one to solve the problem. Back then I did not care about anything else when I was doing those problems. Did not care if I would be good enough, or fast enough. I believed in myself. I trusted and listened to myself. Something I would forget along the way of my life. It brought me so much joy to do long division. So much passion and love.

Eventually I would move to a different town and a different school. Where I would try to show my abilities with long division, and he told that my handwriting was too sloppy when I wrote and to slow down. In one swift move I would lose that spark, that innocence, and that joy. After that incidence I never really enjoyed math again. I allowed someone else to dictate my happiness, my feelings, and control how I do things. I allowed them to take my power away and rob me of my innocence. Sadly it would not be the last time that would happen in life. 

So that is what Reiki is helping me to do again. Helping me to get back to that state of joy, that state of innocence and bliss. Where I believe in myself and trust myself. Even love myself and what I can do. I have been reminded of that state. Of what it is and was like to be in that awareness of being. To embrace my own way of being and living. Instead of someone else’s way. 

I am finding that now. I am finding that love, that bliss, and belief in myself. And for the first time since a child I am finding that passion and love for what I do and will do. It has been an incredible journey that has been so eye opening and transformative that I am beyond grateful for and thankful for. I now know deep down there is so much more to myself and living. I just forgot what I already knew. As most of us do. 

It’s my time to be me. To live my own life. Free of what others tell me. I will make mistakes. I will fall down. But more importantly I will try and I will do it my own way now. 

It’s my life. And it’s worth living. 


3 thoughts on “Embracing ourselves fully.

    In The Autumn Of My Life said:
    September 28, 2016 at 12:09 pm

    Fabulous! I am delighted to hear reiki has helped you so much!

    Bringing up old stuff from the past to be cleansed is one of the things a first attunement is very good at. I suspect you will have many emotions as you settle in to the energy.

    Do direct some of that positive energy to Mother Earth too. She always needs the energy to repair herself and it is a wonderful way to ground yourself and get closer to nature too…the well known idea of imagining your roots in the ground and your flexible swaying self above it can really help you and works well as a way of feeling more steady. Any negative emotion can go through your core into the ground to be cleansed.

    Visualisation will help you get the most out of working with reiki. It’s always a positive, nurturing energy 🙂

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      Jason responded:
      September 28, 2016 at 12:23 pm

      Thank you!

      I will admit grounding is one of the things I forget to do. Yet I know is something I need to do being so sensitive. I do try to make up for that by constantly wearing a hematite bracelet.

      Yes, there are many emotions and feelings coming up and through me. It’s all new to me. Being open to feeling like that. But it’s a great thing. Something that my life was missing.

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    In The Autumn Of My Life said:
    September 28, 2016 at 12:43 pm

    Everybody does get a little lax with the grounding sometimes (although some may not admit it if they are publicly reaching for perfection hehe) so you aren’t alone 😉

    Grounding IS important. However, nothing bad will happen if you sometimes forget. Your spiritual practice is your own and you get out what you put in. Following someone else’s pattern or routine is a good idea when first starting out but you will soon find your own rhythm and ways of doing things and it will all be the right way of doing things because it works for you. You can be as free as you like with it all. That is how my own spiritual practices have panned out anyway.

    “And I did it MYYYYY WAYYYYY!” Oops, sorry about that. Sinatra popped out of his box before I could stop him there…hate it when that happens.

    Good luck and all power to you. I wish you a fabulous week!

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