This past week, I have been working to go deeper into myself and my healing. Taking down bricks of my emotional walls. Using EFT to help break up the old thought patterns to allow in new positive thought patterns. Each time one thing is cleared, it allows another to come up that I have not even thought about in ages. Which is allowing me to go even deeper into my healing working on various angles of it.
During today’s meditation, I was pondering some of the stuff I was working on, and releasing. Some old wounds from past relationships with loved ones, family, and even romantic partners. Working on facing the realities of them, how they went, how they didn’t go. I got to thinking, and had the realization, “It’s Ok.” And I was quite floored and taken aback bye such a phrase and it’s weight in my life. It’s Ok, something an anxious person never really gets to hear from others. For me, I was always told, “you’ll feel better when you get there.” Or “you can do it this one time.” Yet how I have heard something such as, it’s ok. Your feelings and worries are valid, and we understand how you’re feeling. You don’t need to do anything you don’t want to. It would have made such a difference in my life, as well as the lives of others. Instead of the silent judgements, and the whats’a wrong with you, and just given us a hug, and told us, it would be ok. It may have truly changed our outlooks from despair to hope.
And really, who doesn’t like hugs? Cats maybe? Cats will cut you. But everyone else likes hug. Hugs makes everything better.
This was a good realization for me as I peel back the many layers of my self. Coming to terms with the past. And accepting what was to allow room for what will be.