It’s been a few weeks since I have written anything on this blog. After I reached my year goal I took some time off from writing here. I did not stop the journey and adventures. Just did not get around to writing about them. It was a much needed rest from the joys of blogging. As in some ways it started to feel like a chore to keep weekly updating. I am forever grateful for it as it pushed me to keep writing and keep going forward. Something that my life was completely missing.
Another thing that my life did not have, living with anxiety/panic, was spontaneity. To just go out and do something. Don’t think about it, just do it. Such was the case of yesterday when I saw on Facebook that there as a Reiki share going on 25 minutes from where I lived. And I opted to check it out. For those not familiar with a Reiki share, what it is is Reiki practitioners coming together through Reiki and sharing that energy with each other, doing little mini Reiki sessions on earth other. To connect with and strengthen their connection to Reiki and to just share the love. I have attended one of this back last year, but this is the first one in close to a year that I have attended. I have fallen in love with Reiki over the past few months, and have been working with it more and more. So much so that I am now offering Reiki sessions in Medford NJ. I am using Reiki all the time now. It is changing my life in so many ways and once again I am so thankful for it, and for this journey. It is brought so many wonderful experiences and people into my life. Reiki has been calling me, off and on, for 10 years now. I always kept ignoring its call. It is nice to have finally listened. Now I’m wishing I listened so long ago. Men, am I right? We never listen.
Before I started this journey I would have never even just gone to a random building, with people I did not know. And be there for 2-3 hours like that. It would have been an anxiety overload. I would have run from the place screaming, and flailing my hands in the air. (FYI, that is how I would run. Or would I? You’ll never know. ) To have that freedom to be able to do that and not think about it, or worry about it, or throw up before hand, is such a blessing in my life. To be free like that. To enjoy life. The spontaneity of it all. I am thankful beyond words. If I had not wanted to change my life, to actually get up and do it. To do whatever was needed to do it. I would not be where I am in life right now. I would have been in a dark place, stuffing my face with junk food to numb the pain, be obese, and hate myself and my life. I’ve walked that path, and I have no plans to ever get back there. I am looking forward to the future and where it will take me. With my head held high, and a smile on my face.