Hear my story
Jay is a Reiki Master Teacher, Shamanism Practitioner, Energy Intuitive, and Intuitive Channel living in Southern New Jersey. He sees clients in-person in his office in Medford NJ.
As a child I was what many could consider “sensitive” or “too sensitive”, or even “overly emotional.” Being sensitive has caused me to have been labeled as shy, and anti-social. My first experience with spirit happened when I was 4 years old. I woke up from a sleep and coming into my bedroom was a figure. At first, I only saw the head, and that scared the socks right off of me at four, and I screamed bloody murder. Now, truthfully my socks were connected to my pajamas at 4, and so they couldn’t actually come off. In that moment, that fear took a grip on me, and it started to shut me down to seeing spirit. As well as parents who would tell me that ghosts aren’t real.
Eventually in time and being a guy who was told that “men” should not cry, which I would do all the time watching movies. I started to shut down, turn things off, and just go numb too as much as I could. Even with being shut down, it was still difficult being around large groups as that could be very exhausting and draining. Most days I kept to myself to disconnect and recharge. Without even knowing why I was doing that. Even though I blocked myself from being able to see spirit, and really connect with them at the time. I was still getting their advice and guidance all the time. I rationalized it as being from “my conscience.” Like the cartoons of old where they would have the angel/devil sitting on their shoulders. My intuition helped me a lot through that time without me ever knowing what it was. I didn’t come from a family that was into spirituality and the likes. I grew up in a pretty Catholic household, even getting placed into Catholic School, some of the hardest/harshest years of my life.
Being highly sensitive, and having a big kind heart, and not knowing what all of it was, or being able to say no, put me on a path of lots of toxic people in my life over the years. I endured lots of emotional/physical abuse. I was bullied a lot in school. Even on the internet. Unable to speak my truth or put boundaries up to those who didn’t have my best interest at heart. I was always wanting to help others and I was always seeing the best in everyone; it left me with many who would take advantage of that.
Through all of that, it caused a lot of traumas. It caused me to shut down to a lot. To feeling. To the world. To others. Anything I could do, to keep myself “safe” and not hurting. I did. That life I was living, was very heavy and painful. It weighed on my heart/mind/soul for a long time. Eventually my body started to reflect the inner turmoil I was in. I started to have lots of anxiety, and food intolerance/sensitivities. I gained a ton of weight. Tipping the scales at over 260 pounds at one point in my life. That played a huge part of my life for 20 years. For many years, it consumed me, creating me to be more of a hermit, and avoiding the world. I was a mere shadow just going through the motions. I hated every moment of it. It took a heavy toll on me. Yet the spirit world would always persist, and always called to me. Calling me back, to ways to work on myself. Calling me to find ways to connect to it. In 2005 I spent a week in the hospital after having my appendix burst, and that started me down a path of spirituality. Even still I was stubborn to walk it and listen to it. Eventually through spirit’s direction that path brought me to Reiki which helped me to start to connect back to my sensitivities and start to open me up to seeing things again. Seeing energy in the world, flashes of lights, shapes, white beings around me at night, and wavy lines around me and over me in the room at night. This became the normal for me.
Yet there was still something missing. Or I should say, there was still a lot of inner work that needed to happen that I wasn’t ready for at the time and wasn’t listening to the nudging. Through this journey, I’ve learned that spirit is very patient, and will only give us what we are capable of handling. Some of us, can be stubborn, and take our times with it. Yet, that time is always exactly when we were meant to be. I continued to keep putting off the calling of spirit, to do their work. To be who I was meant to be. I kept denying that part of myself. I fought against it.
That stubbornness, along with all the trauma I had endured, put me in a place of being stuck, and I was just going through the motions. Eventually that sent me down a very dark, dark path. Where on many nights I begged for my life to be over. I even tried to make that happen on my many occasions. Each dark night, ever time, I tried to end it, I would always see beings of white light standing around me. Watching over me. In 2013, I was in my lowest place within myself that I had ever been in. Yet somehow, despite it all, I had a strength that I never knew was possible deep within me, a strength to keep on, keeping on. To keep on pushing forward and keep on getting up.
In 2015, I had a what many would call a spiritual awakening, it was a new awakening, and I knew it was time to make changes. To begin the path, I needed to be on. To get to work. It was then that I started the long journey towards healing myself and transforming my life for the better. That journey brought me back to Reiki, to experiencing the healing power of Reiki. Reiki truly opened inner and outer doors for me. It brought me to so many great people, who become great friends. It brought me to great teachers that could help me connect to my abilities more and connect more to spirit. Reiki was only the beginning for me. It transformed my life in so many ways. Not just in how it can help others, but in how it helped me. I regularly get Reiki sessions on myself, participate in Reiki shares/circles, as I love the energy and what it does for us. As well as I love to experience it on myself.
Through Reiki I was able to meet a local Shaman, by the name of Owl White Feather. And working with her and learning Shamanism has been a blessing to my life in so many ways. Having the ability to be a Shaman apprentice under her has completely transformed my life in ways I never knew were possible. Through working with Shamanism, shaman journeying, and healing, I have been able to heal trauma that has been dormant and buried for my whole life. It has helped me to heal and release lifelong fear, anxiety, shame, embarrassment. To allow me to connect more to my heart, and my inner self. Helping me to truly begin to heal and love myself in ways I had never been able to do before. Much like a snake shedding its skin, it helped me to shed layers of myself that no longer served me. It helped me to see myself in a new light. And it helped me get to the real me. The true me that I had been denying since I was a kid. Now in my early 40’s I am starting to truly live the life I was meant to be living.
Now I work with others to help them transform their lives too. Helping others heal, and transform their life, is a passion of mine. Through Shamanism, Reiki, Mediumship, and Intuitive guidance, I help others find themselves, clear out things they no longer need, and to get in touch with themselves, and their inner selves. I have witnessed first-hand how much it has changed/transformed me and my life, and I work to help others see it in their lives. I know it’s real, it’s powerful, and it’s saved my life. My days aren’t always perfect, and just like anyone else, I can have a bad day. Yet, now I have more power within myself, that a bad moment, doesn’t become a bad day, or a bad week. And another’s word(s) don’t cause me to cower and recoil in fear.
Training and Experience
Peruvian, Celtic, and Native American Shamanism 2017-2018; 2021-2022
Teacher- Owl White Feather
Traditional Usui Reiki 1, 2 and 3 – 2007/2008
Teacher – Anthony Blears
Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki 1 & 2 – 2021
Teacher Lourdes Gray
Traditional and Tibetan Reiki 1, 2 and 3 – 2022
Teacher Elsie Kerns
Integrated Energy Therapy (IET) Basic, Intermediate, and Advanced – 2017
Teacher Michelle Troupe
Integrative Nutrition Health Coach – Oct 2018 – Oct 2019
Institute of Integrative Nutrition
Disclaimer: Reiki energy and Shamanic healing does not replace the advice or recommendations of a qualified medical practitioner. Such as one’s doctor. It works as a compliment to aid the practices of western medicine. Energy Healing works to treat the whole person, mind, spirit, and body, and it helps to bring balance to mind, body, and spirit. Creating a state of wholeness.
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