I decided to keep the ball rolling yesterday on my adventuring, and decided to take myself out to a state park. To get out, enjoy the nice weather, and just have some fun. I had. I where in particular to go, so I went to google, and did a quick search on state parks. One of the hits was to Washington State Park, which was not too far from me. So off I went. To where George Washington is said to have crossed the Delaware to come into Trenton, during the revolution.
Upon arriving I went to the little museum to check out history. It’s always so neat to see such things. I am very fond of those old time periods. Where life was simple. I enjoy those simpler times. There is just a majestic beauty it. Don’t get my wrong, I would never survive back then. I enjoy the luxuries that we all take for granted today, such as air conditioner. I would be a hot mess without it. Let alone the advancements we have in medicine today, over what they used for surgery back then. No thank you. Sadly, I was not able to take pictures inside the museum. All that I saw, will be a memory for ever. Or until I lose my memory. Which ever comes first.
There was plenty of paths to take. I passed a couple buildings, but sadly they were not open. Until eventually I came across the place where the crossing happening. There is a lovely bridge you can take, that takes you over the road and down to the water.
And there it was, the famous crossing site of George Washington… I think they may have exaggerated the story some over the years. I’m no Michael Phelps but I think I can cross that little bit of water quite easily. I kid of course. I am told that was just a little canal. I canal believe it myself. See what I did there? Puns are fun, or should I say puny? No?! Moving on.
Right past that little canal was much more water, which I assume is the actual place he crossed. Maybe. I wasn’t there back then so I have no clue where he exactly passed. The sign said it was 13 miles, all the way around it, and I wasn’t that interested to see it, to walk that. So I went about my way and kept walking, and enjoyed the rest of my day outside in the sun, and having fun.
Before heading back home, after a fun filled weekend of adventuring. Before going to Barnes And Noble and picking up a stuffed Totoro. Just because. If you have never seen My Neighbor Totoro, I highly recommend it. Or any Studio Ghibli film. And no, I am not too old for toys, or stuffed animals for that matter. He know guards me while I sleep. It’s the simple things in life that make me smile.
That’s it for this weekends adventures hopefully next weekend I can get out and adventure somewhere else. It was nice to get out and adventure and go to new places I’ve never beje before. As well as see a piece of history.
The Holiday Toy edition.
Another week down in the books and another week of adventures. This week marked the 40th week, which by my counts, is ten mounts of having fun, and enjoying life. That is a feat all on its own. Time is certainly flying by this year. This year was incredible and I am working, and will be working, to make 2017 much more so.
This years weekly adventure was a little different than my normal outings and was also me doing something new and going out of my comfort zones many times. Earlier in the week I had a fun meetup with friends, where we started at dinner, in a place walled Brickwall, and followed that out with some group discussion and chat, with a lovely bunch of people, that I have gotten the opportunity to meet and get to know this past year. Every time we get together we have so much fun. The energy is wonderful and much laughter is always had.
Then this Saturday was one of two Holiday Toy for Tots drives I was hosting this year. I have always wanted to do something like this but have never been able to. So this year I thought, now is as good a time as any to do one, so I put it in motion. Threw it out there, and was amazed at how many people jumped on board to help out with this, get involved with this, and just be a part of it. This week, On Angel Wings MM.LLC was gracious enough to allow me to use their store for this. I can not thank them enough for their kindness and their help with all of this. All of this was new to me. I had never done something like this. So I stepped out of my comfort zone many a time for this. Normally I am the one that just slips into the background and becomes a part of something. I’m not the one who starts something or takes charge, the lead, with things. My path has taken me more and more into new and unfamiliar territories as I grow and learn so much about myself. I will admit there were many a time where it would have been so much easier to just quit it all, call it off, and hide my head in the sand like an ostrich. But that is not what this journey has been about. It’s been about pushing myself forward in life and creating a new world/life for myself. I am glad that I kept moving forward with this and with my life. It is really opening up new doors and opportunities for myself.
For this Toy drive, myself, along with a few others, would be doing oracle card/tarot card readings for people that wanted them. It is amazing how far I have come with that. From being scared to doing them in public for others to now hosting an event where I am doing them for the event, to next year I will have my first table at an expo where I will be doing oracle card readings all day. It’s been such a whirlwind of a journey that has been incredible, and scary, and exciting all at once. I would have never really taken that first step if it wasn’t for my friend, and inspiration, Marie Gilbert, who encouraged me, and really pushed me into doing it. In fact everyone has been so supportive and encouraging with me through all of this which has helped me so much and helped me gain that confidence that I need in myself and being who I am, that I an not thank them enough for it. I truly would not be where I am today without them. Being around link minded people, who encourage me, and help me, has been the best part about this journey. They have always seen things within me, and believe in me, when I did not, and it has helped me in so many ways.
I had the opportunity to do a few readings for people yesterday that really connected and were well received, which made me feel good. One of the best parts of this journey is all the people that I meet and have met over the year. It is amazing the way you just meet people. Some that share the same things you do or are going through something similar to what you are. It’s as if the universe just lines up for that moment to meet these people, to share some wisdom with them, to become friends, whatever is needed in that moment for that individual. It is both amazing and humbling to be apart of it. Sometimes you become lifelong friends with these people and sometimes its only meant to be a brief encounter. Everything is exactly as it is meant to be.
The Toy drive was quite the success, we had many show up for it, and many toys were donated for it. The box upon when I left was overflowing with toys, and will continue to collect until the 9th, when I pick them up to get them to be dropped off to the local toys for tots branch. Next week I will be hosting another event at Spirit Light Services, where I will be doing more card readings, along with a few other talented readers, that I am honored to be alongside them for this.
I never expected myself to be in this place, doing things like this. I had no idea where this journey would take me, when I set off in March to do it. Now I can not imagine my life any other way. I have had fun, talked with, and met so many incredible people. That have forever changed my life and way of being. I am thankful and grateful for all of it. The ups and the downs. I would not change a thing. I am building a better life. For I know, deep within myself, that there is so much more to life and living and that I deserve so much more than I ever gave myself credit for. I am becoming more confident within myself and allowing myself to be more of me.
I look forward to where I am heading. I have lots of work to do to get there, but I am willing to work at it, and make those changes. I would never have gotten here had I not have taken that first step. Had I not have put myself out there and gone out. The journey of a thousand miles truly did start with that first step. I am thankful that I took that first step. That I found the courage to go out there. To have fun. To enjoy life. To live life.
The twentieth week of going out. Let’s just take a moment and be grateful for such an achievement. That is 5 months of going out some place different at least once a week. This is a new achievement for me. This is something I could have never thought would be possible or ever imagined myself doing it. Yet, today, was it. Today was that day.
Today I went out somewhere new and went up to North Jersey to see The Vietnam Veteran’s Memorial. It was an hour and a half drive up there, with traffic and avoiding tolls, it took about 2 hours to get there. On top of that I was not feeling all that well this morning. I think one of the party goers last night had a little bug or something and ended up sharing it with me. My head was all congested, I had a headache, and my stomach was off. A year ago that would have been more than enough to give me an excuse not to go anywhere. It did not take much back then. A little sneeze, and I would have been in for the day, watching movies and playing video games. Or in this case Netflix and relaxing. Trying to finish my binging of Supernatural. I am on season 6… 5 more to go. Today I did not let this little ailments slow me down or prevent me from going out to where I wanted to go. I am on a mission to go out and see the world, and live. Finally live. Something I was so not doing. Like so many else that have dealt with anxiety and panic.
The drive up was not too bad, even though there was some traffic. And in NJ when there is traffic, you can be sitting for a while. After arriving and parking, I checked my phone to see if there was an admission to this place. As you never know. I found out. The Museum was closed. I was a tad disappointed in that. As that was the main reason I was heading up there in the first place. I was hoping to check out some of the gear the likes from this time period in history. I have been fascinated with these things all of a sudden and was hoping to get a good view at history. I did not visit the Vietnam Memorial in D.C. It is a shame, perhaps another reason to take a day trip back down there. I had got back into my car and was going to drive right on pack, after spending two hours in the car. But opted to walk around a little since I was already there. There was a few statues, and monuments to check out. Some nice scenery, and nice views to see. It has been extremely hot lately here, which made it a pain to walk around in the open. Even with sunscreen. I got a few pictures and walked around for a few before heading back home and getting something to eat.
All in all it was a great day. Another successful day out, even while not feeling all that well to begin with. I was also thinking of going to the movies with my sister while she is in town but this little bug is kicking my butt and I’m ready to just sleep for a few hours.
My crazy adventures of going out continue. I say crazy because I never in my life ever thought this would EVER be possible. Yet, here I am. Next week will be two months of doing this. Straight. That in itself is a milestone for me. I did not have any place in particular to go to this week. So I just randomly picked some place. To think such a notion to be spontaneous like that would have in the past made me ill to my stomach. Just to think about it. Yet today, I was able to do it. And it was fun.
Today I chose Ocean City, NJ, as my spot to visit. It was an extra thirty minute drive to avoid tolls. I did not mind. I actually enjoyed the drive. I know. I can’t believe I am typing it. It was a relaxing and peaceful drive there. It was nice and scenic taking the back roads. The weather was nice for the most part. Once I got close to the beach it was pretty chilly. I am glad that I grabbed my Batman sweatshirt to wear. Even with my hoodie up, it was cold. People were loving it though. I am one who loves the cold myself, but not as much as those that were laughing it up on the beach, or just wearing a pair of shorts and a tee-shirt. More power to them. I was cold at times.
After arriving there I saw the tail end of a Dog Parade, all puns intended. I never really been one for the beach, and walking in the sand. While I love the water, being in the water, the beach never really did anything for me. It was quite packed on the boardwalk. While that was fun walking back and forth it seems to have a limited appeal. Unless you just want to shop in the shops. There was some mini golf and some roller coasters. Though I think you are pretty brave to go on a roller coaster that is at a boardwalk. It’s like going on one of those rides at one of those carnivals that you see at your old high school. Where it looks like it could be fun if you didn’t fly off the rails of this makeshift ride.
I walked a little bit of the beach, just to do it, but it was really cold near the water. So that was really short lived. I will say these types of things, going to the boardwalk or the beach, is probably a lot more fun if you were in the presence of good company. I see it would benefit my nicely to have a travel buddy on some of these excursions. While it is just to be out there alone, traveling with someone could be even better. While there I did get a little pamphlet for a comic con in Atlantic City in a couple of weeks that I am going to go to. Look at me, planning events a few weeks in advance. Who am I, and what did I do with the old me? I did not stay long as I had a movie ticket to see The Jungle Book. So today was a double feature kind of day. Then I celebrated with some delicious healthy fruit.
While looking for things to do I found even more things to do and next week I am thinking of visiting the Thomas Edison Museum in Edison NJ. Should be fun. And will be two months out there. Inching my way along to new heights and experiences. Look out world. I’m coming for you.
This week was a huge week for me in my weekly adventures in pushing myself further and further, and working through my anxiety/panic attacks, so I can live a ‘normal’ life. Since I was off Monday, I went out on Monday, which would still qualify as my weekly adventure in going out… But I was not gonna just fall into my old ways and only go out that one time when Saturday in my normal time for going out.
So that is what I did. I decided to go out again today, for my second time. I was not sure on where I was going or how many options I was gonna have, as it was said to Snow today… Yep, that’s right. Snow in April. Is it still considered Winter weather in Spring even if it’s snow, or does it become Spring Weather?
After mulling over a couple ideas of where to go, I decided to go and see Devil’s Tower in Alpine NJ, today. It has an interesting history behind it. A plantation farmer erected it for his wife, so she could see the NY skyline. One day she went up the tower and found her husband with another one, so she threw herself off the tower. It is said that she still haunts the place. That was really what interested me in seeing it. To see if there was any ghosts there. I am interested in that type of stuff. I plan and hope to check out more types of places like that during my adventures. I am really fascinated by this kind of stuff. Who knows maybe one day I’ll go a ghost investigation with a group of paranormal investigators. That would be something. As well as something I never even considered before, or being able to do. Now that things are changing for me, all types of doors are opening for me. And I am loving every second of it.
This voyage was a big one because it was a long, long ride to it. This was about a little over 2 hours to get there. Which can seem like forever for a person that has gone through the struggles and battles of anxiety. At around over an hour or so of driving and looking at the towns I got to that point of, holy crap! This is really happening. I am so far from my home. This is real. I did not panic during that. I did not turn around, or stop. Which is a blessing compared to the past, where I would have gone mental, and wigged out. I was getting really close to NY, and at times I thought I was going to end up there. As it felt like my GPS was sending me there. Luckily I did not get into NY. It was a lovely tower to see. Sadly it is not open to see the insides, it is fenced off, with a camera, and a no trespassing sign. So all I could do was snap a few pictures. Admire my view, and be proud of getting there. Before heading back home. My legs were so tired from being in the car like that. But it was a great triumph for me, and will help me go even further with myself and my journeys. Sadly, I did not see any ghosts and this place. Though I did have that eerie feeling of being watched from the tower. But that could have been my own preconceived notions of the place being haunted and made myself feel like it was.
I returned home and got some grapes to celebrate my victory. I love me some grapes.
My adventures in going out for the week usually take place at the end of the week, on Saturday. This week, I changed it up a bit. Today I was off from work and decided to go out and explore on my day off. That is such a change from sitting home on my days off. That was the norm for so many years. Not living life. Not enjoying life. Just doing the motions day in and day out. It is a great, and much needed, change of pace for once. I never really thought of myself as going out when I was not working. I had become so accustomed to doing nothing all day, every day. That was who I was. Until now, when I am finally becoming so much more than I could have ever imagined. And this is only the tip of the iceberg for me.
This week’s trip took my to Absecon, NJ, to their Lighthouse. This was an impromptu trip. I had no destination in mind. Just that I wanted to go out somewhere. To not sit around wasting life. When you live with anxiety the idea of spontaneous and impromptu are some of the scariest words in the dictionary. Nor are they part of our vocabulary. Today I made them fun words and something I wish to keep in my vocabulary.
It was a nice little day trip out to Absecon. The weather was nice. It was extremely windy at the top of the lighthouse. So much so that it was able to move me all over the place. Had their had not been a guard rail, I would have easily gone off the side. It was a nice little climb, 220 steps. The tallest Lighthouse in NJ, and the Third largest in the country… Or so the card the light keeper gave me at the top of the light house claimed. It was a lovely view at top. Much like where life is taking me now. To the top. Finally. I was surprised when the light keeper said they get 100 or so visitors a day during peek days. 50 or so on their slower days. I could believe it because there was probably 5 more people arriving at the top as I was walking back down.
On my way down I picked up some brochures and a book on the local things to do and see around there. This spring/summer, for the first time ever, is going to be the busiest and most fun summer/spring I have ever had. I am looking forward to it and for the first time ever I can not wait.
I plan to keep the momentum going for this week and continue out again on Saturday. Here’s to fun times.