I have been fortunate this year to have met incredibly gifted people that have helped me so much in my journey, in understanding myself, and bettering myself. Some of those people are very gifted at being able to sense energies of others, and were able to sense my energies. Or at least try to, before I had put up walls automatically to shut that down. In some ways that is not a bad thing to protect our energies. Being sensitive to energies and being an Empath shielding is very important. To keep another out of your energy.
What is interesting about these walls I throw up is that I was never consciously doing it or doing it on purpose. It just happened. Knowing this about myself and these walls was one of the things I worked on when I did that crystal bowl meditation was that this wall was also blocking me from the world. Today I learned just how much I really was blocking myself with.
Yesterday and today I had been a little under the weather, and was not feeling all that well. I was not sick mind you, but I could feel that I was off, and had I kept that course of action I would eventually get sick. Since I have a lot going on I could not get sick right now. Never thought I would be one to ever say those words in that sentence. My how my life has changed. So naturally I eat a ton of pineapple to help me feel better. I really just like to eat a ton of pineapple so any reason to eat it, “for health benefits” I’m going to take it. The other thing I would do is bring in Archangel Raphael, his healing angels, and surround myself with his emerald green healing. I work with Raphael a ton over the years with my anxiety, or nerves, or even any health issue. While all that did help me, I am sure, I was still, not completely well. It was still there. So while I was driving, asking for my healing, I got a thought, as I seldom do when I am letting my mind wander, and it was probably coming from Raphael himself, that was saying, “have you allowed yourself to actually receive the healing?” Now that took my back a little, as I had not really thought about it. I always just assumed that I was already doing that, when I was asking for the healing. I never really stopped to allow myself to receive the healing. To be open to receiving the healing, and deserving of receiving it. So I did just that, allowed myself to receive the healing. Gave myself permission to do so. And what do you know? Within a few minutes of allowing it, I felt so much better. I had more pep, and felt more alive again. It was incredible, and I was amazed at it, and with Archangel Raphael.
To witness and experience a miracle like that in my life was so incredible, and humbling all at the same time. After work I had a dentist appointment so naturally I brought Raphael back in with the cleaning that was being done on my teeth. Once again allowing myself to receive his help and healing during the cleaning. One it was done the hygienist remarked at how shocked she was at how clean my teeth had gotten. That she couldn’t believe that they would gotten that clean. Of course I was not shocked at all. I smiled and thanked Raphael for once again helping me.
I have taken down so many walls in my life. Walls that have kept others out of my life. From people getting close to me, romantically, and with friends, or myself getting close to them. Those walls have kept me in a box for far too long. I am taking them down. I am pushing myself further and further. Being more open and free with each step. I am finally on the right path in life. I have so much potential, others see it in me, and I hope one day to full see that potential in action in my life fully. I am amazed each week at all that I have witnessed, seen, and felt. Each week I learn more and more about myself and am capable and able to do more than I ever even knew I could.
I look forward now to where my life will take me.