Yesterday, while glancing the internet, I was sadddened to learn about the loss the music industry received when it was revealed that Linkin Park frontman, Chester Bennington, had been found dead, from apparent suicide.
It is always truly heartbreaking to see someone take their life. I know first hand how bad depression can be, and to be in a place where I have wanted to take my own life numerous times. Reiki and energy healing really helped change my life and turn all that around for me, to a place of real and lasting happiness.
It then becomes more heartbreaking as most families and friends know nothing about the struggles we face, and when they do know about it, it’s usually way to late. So someone asked me, “Sad to hear that.. Why do you think this happens with out family realizing somethings wrong” I replied to them many who are depressed put on a false face, where they project a look of being happy, without actually being happy. Some don’t want others to be burdened with their pain or suffering. They don’t want their pity, and so keep it to themselves. And for a vast majority they don’t feel like they have anyone that’s really listening to them. They have a tendency to feel alone with it, even though they may not truly be alone. To them they are.
My struggle over the years was always a silent one, I didn’t really talk to people about it. It was always my burden to bare. I also did not want anyone’s pity. To me when that happens you start to feel guilty about the way you feel and act, and that just sends us further down the hole we are in. Or worse they tell us to “suck it up.” To others our struggles may not seem like a thing, but to us, they are huge. They are real. So we keep them to ourselves.
That’s not to say there is nothing you can do for those who are struggling. There is plenty to do for us. Being there for us and just listen to us. Listen to us ramble, listen to us complain. Hold that space of love and light for us. Because we are not seeing it within ourselves. We need that light to be there to remind us of what we already have within us, that we have forgotten. We don’t want to be told we are wrong, or that we shouldn’t feel that way, for many we already know that, but we can’t always help it, because we feel defeated. We are tired, and run down, from being strong all the time. So listen to us, don’t tell us how we are wrong, we hate that, we want to be heard, and loved. Because in those moments, we don’t love ourselves. To us all we see is what is wrong with us and our lives, we need to be shown and felt what is right. We need your patience, and support, and encouragement. To help us get ourselves back on our feet again. We have to find that light, and that spark within ourselves.
Finding that spark is a journey within itself. It’s not an easy one. It will be hard at times, and will really push us from the edges, back to the other edge, before we come out to the other side again. That in itself can be scary. Change always is. I struggled with depression, and even wanting to end it, for a long, long time. There was a lot within myself that needed to be changed. For there was a lot of healing that needed to be done. Those wounds within me, were still bleeding. I may not have shown it, or even saw it, but they were there, within me. I had to find the healing I needed, to come back from the edge of the void I was living at. I had to make that choice and decision that I wanted, no I needed to, heal my life. I had to truly want it. I had to come to the realization that what I was doing, the way I was living, was not working for me anymore. I needed more from life. It wasn’t life that had failed me, I had failed life, for I was not living. I was just existing in life.
It was energy healing and healing myself through using crystals, and Reiki, and crystal bowls, that really helped me open up, and change my life. Which helped bring me to people that were there for me, supportive of me, and able to see the spark within myself that I no longer saw, that really helped me find my way out of the darkness, and into the light, and no longer look back. This journey has been an incredible one. I have learned so much about myself, what I am capable of, and am now a person so drastically different than I was before I set out two years ago to change my life.
Change can be scary but it can be so incredible if we allow the chaos of it and allow ourselves to be more than we ever imagined. We are incredible beings capable of incredible things. We just forgot that along the way. The more we believe in and trust in ourselves the more our lives can truly change for the better. All it takes is us truly wanting to change. To live a better life. And then just enjoy the ride.
We all deserve happiness and we are all capable of being happy. We just have to realize happiness is within us. Not something we have to find outside of us.
(If you are struggling with depression, and suicidal thoughts, reach out to people. Talk to a trained professional. You don’t have to struggle alone. There are many there that can help you. )
Last night was another crystal bowl and Reiki meditation where I was performing Reiki while the crystal bowls were playing in the background. Allowing healing on various levels of being. It was a packed room, with twelve people participating in this event. It was our third event together in the past three months. All an incredible experience for everyone involved. To be in that environment now and doing something I love and am passionate about is such an amazing thing.
It gets me to thinking about my journey and how far I have come in the past two years. How I have transformed my life for the better in so many ways. It’s hard to believe there was a time when my life was controlled by fear and anxiety. Where I avoided everything. Life. People. Living. Now I am doing events like this, and the fear I once had, is no longer there controlling me. I am free. To be free is such a wonderful thing. Now I work to help others change their life and be free too.
My life has been a wild and crazy roller coaster over the years and has taken me to places I never dreamed of, and am doing things I never thought I could or would. All because I took a chance and took a leap of faith into the world. It was scary but I was no longer going to let that fear run my life. I love interacting with people and helping them make changes in their life. Reiki allows me to be able to do that as I’ve seen what Reiki and energy work can do. Reiki is just one of the many tools I have acquired over the years of healing myself.
I have been asked many questions on what is Reiki and I hope to answer some of them for people with this post.
So what is Reiki?
Reiki is a healing technique based on the principle that the therapist can channel energy into the patient by means of touch, to activate the natural healing processes of the patient’s body and restore physical and emotional well-being.
What is involved in a Reiki session?
In a typical session the client and the Reiki practitioner, get together and first talk about what brought the person to them. What they are hoping to achieve from a Reiki session and for new people a quick rundown of what to expect and what Reiki is.
The client then usually lays on a massage table, or in some cases a chair, and the Reiki practitioner connects to the Reiki energy and begins to channel it into the client through their hands, and into their body through various hand positions on the body. Reiki can also be done hands off as well. Reiki is conscious enough to go where it is needed. To bring balance to the body, mind, and spirit, to help the bodies own natural healing abilities and to strength the organs within the body.
Reiki so based on the principle of channeling universal life force, known to some as Chi or Qi.
A typical session can last from 30 minutes to an hour and a half. Most are usually an hour. Afterwards the client will feel relaxed, calm, and peaceful. During a session a client may fall asleep, or have an emotional response, such as crying. It’s all part of the healing process.
After wards it is recommended to drink plenty of water to help flush out any toxins and energies that are no longer needed by the body. It’s not uncommon to be thirsty and drink a lot, as well as use the bathroom frequently to expel it all, as well as have strange dreams, and even sleep a good night afterwards. Each session is unique to the person receiving it.
During a session a person may feel warmth, cold, tingles, or even have visions or feel loved ones around them. Most report a feeling of calm and peace.
A Reiki practitioner may also incorporate crystals or sound into the healing session.
Reiki and energy healing is about bringing balance to the individual who is seeking healing. A Reiki practitioner is only a channel for the Reiki energies, healing is up to the person that seeks healing.
If given a chance to experience a Reiki session, I recommend it. It may just change your life as it has me.
Energy healing does not replace medical treatment or medical advice. It’s a compliment to help you along your healing journey. To bring balance and wholeness to your entire being.
This past Monday I had the opportunity to once again be a part of a crystal bowl meditation, Halo Wellness in Marlton, NJ, while I provided Reiki on those who were a part of this meditation. The bowls were being played by my friend, Beth, and it was a wonderful turnout. We had 13 people involved. Which was a lot of Reiki to be channeling. Naturally I was exhausted afterward and the day after as well.
I’ve mentioned before my love for the crystal bowls and how much they have helped my healing journey. They have helped me clear out so much from my energy body, aura, and even my chakras. They have been so instrumental in helping me open up more and be able to step fully into my own power. I still have ways to go with my healing, but know I am on the right track. So to be able to be part of a meditation with them has been an incredible experience for me.
I am forever thankful for this journey. Reiki has now become such a huge part of my life and I can’t imagine my life without Reiki. I spent the past decade trying to run away from doing Reiki, but it always called me back to. Now I am happy to be listening to it’s call. I love Reiki, energy work, and what it can do for us. I look forward to what more it can do for me, my healing, and helping others. I have only scratched the surface of Reiki and I look forward to where it will take me.
I love hearing from others about their experiences with Reiki, from a session with me. Such positive experiences and comments from them. Where they do, are able to experience what Reiki can do for them. It’s exciting and I’m excited for them.
I am blown away with how far I have come on my journey over the past year. Where it has taken me. The people I have met and are now such a big part of my life. I can’t picture my life any other way. I am thankful for it all. It has not been easy and has been crazy at times. It has been a roller coaster and I am going with the flow of it all.
When I started it all, I never thought I’d get to where I am today. I never thought I’d be out there doing it all. Yet I am. And I have not been this happy, in a long, long time.
This was our second session, and I look forward to our next one together in June. If you’ve never been to a crystal bowl meditation, you may want to check one out, it may just change your life. As it did for me.
It’s been a few weeks since I have written anything on this blog. After I reached my year goal I took some time off from writing here. I did not stop the journey and adventures. Just did not get around to writing about them. It was a much needed rest from the joys of blogging. As in some ways it started to feel like a chore to keep weekly updating. I am forever grateful for it as it pushed me to keep writing and keep going forward. Something that my life was completely missing.
Another thing that my life did not have, living with anxiety/panic, was spontaneity. To just go out and do something. Don’t think about it, just do it. Such was the case of yesterday when I saw on Facebook that there as a Reiki share going on 25 minutes from where I lived. And I opted to check it out. For those not familiar with a Reiki share, what it is is Reiki practitioners coming together through Reiki and sharing that energy with each other, doing little mini Reiki sessions on earth other. To connect with and strengthen their connection to Reiki and to just share the love. I have attended one of this back last year, but this is the first one in close to a year that I have attended. I have fallen in love with Reiki over the past few months, and have been working with it more and more. So much so that I am now offering Reiki sessions in Medford NJ. I am using Reiki all the time now. It is changing my life in so many ways and once again I am so thankful for it, and for this journey. It is brought so many wonderful experiences and people into my life. Reiki has been calling me, off and on, for 10 years now. I always kept ignoring its call. It is nice to have finally listened. Now I’m wishing I listened so long ago. Men, am I right? We never listen.
Before I started this journey I would have never even just gone to a random building, with people I did not know. And be there for 2-3 hours like that. It would have been an anxiety overload. I would have run from the place screaming, and flailing my hands in the air. (FYI, that is how I would run. Or would I? You’ll never know. ) To have that freedom to be able to do that and not think about it, or worry about it, or throw up before hand, is such a blessing in my life. To be free like that. To enjoy life. The spontaneity of it all. I am thankful beyond words. If I had not wanted to change my life, to actually get up and do it. To do whatever was needed to do it. I would not be where I am in life right now. I would have been in a dark place, stuffing my face with junk food to numb the pain, be obese, and hate myself and my life. I’ve walked that path, and I have no plans to ever get back there. I am looking forward to the future and where it will take me. With my head held high, and a smile on my face.
The very late edition.
This is the latest I have even written this article, while I did plenty in the week, I had become so busy and tired, that I have not had a chance to write this post. This past week has been a crazy and wild ride, and I’m not even talking about Donald Trump’s first week as president. Mind you, that also is a wild and crazy ride. It’s like one never ending episode of Punk’D and we are all doing it to ourselves. Sadly, I did not get to keep up with the one month of posting. I made it to a week and quite frankly I had nothing else to really say at the time. So I stopped it. I give myself and A for effort.
Last week was a week of lot of healing work. A lot of healing work. And as such that healing work really took it out of me. On top of me having to work one night a week at 4 AM, my sleep schedule has been all over the place. The more I heal and open up the more sensitive I become and need more downtime in between things. I’m not complaining it’s allowing a lot to shift for me and helping me create a better version of me. Which is always a good thing.
The week started with some inner child healing, which was an interesting experience of working with someone to get in touch with ones inner self. I think had I have been better at relaxing, meditating, and visualizing, I would have been able to get more out of the session. However I do think it did help, and allowed me to work on some stuff within me. Which is always a blessing. I don’t know if it was the way I was reclining, or the session itself, but I ended up with some serious vertigo like symptoms, and was dizzy for a couple days. And went straight to bed as soon as I got home.
Wednesday was another day of development circle, and that is always a lot of fun. Saturday allowed me to attend another crystal bowl meditation, and that one really worked on my Sacral chakra, as well as my solar plexus. Clearing up some stuff for me, and also as usual leaving me really tired and unable to do so much. Which was fine by me as it was a tiring week of healing work. Where Sunday I would spend all morning and afternoon attending a healing workshop, which I will hopefully talk about in another post.
All in all for me, it was a good week. Very healing. A lot was cleared and let go. For the country, we are not starting our healing journey and hopefully, just hopefully, we will come out of it as a beautiful new loving creature. Who is not so focused on ourselves and our own lives but in the acceptance and love of each other.
The one thing I will say as doing all this healing work really opens my eyes to my purpose and that is of doing this healing work with and on others.
I’m 48 weeks in, and it’s amazing to see how this one year journey is actually reaching the one year mark. Exciting. I never in a million years thought I would ever be here. Life is amazing and will take you to new heights and places beyond our wildest imaginations.
Back in September I talked about my journey with Reiki. That article is something that gets read quite a bit, as it becomes searched for a lot of Google. As many come looking to read about Reiki, and healing with it.
Since it’s been a few months since I posted that post, I thought I would do another one, talking more about my journey with Reiki. I have now had three sessions done on me, by a fantastic Reiki practitioner, who is also an Angel intuitive. Each session I had was incredible and each one really built on top of the last one. As each session I could feel more and more with the energies themselves as I cleared myself out and opened up more, I could start to really feel the energies themselves working on me. As I become more sensitive. Working on oneself, energetically, that is what starts to happen. We become more sensitive to the world and all the worlds unseen that we don’t even realize. Healing is such a wonderful thing. It really helps us on more ways than we imagine. Most of us, I was no different when I started this healing journey back in May 0f 07, I just wanted that quick fix. Where I would heal my body, and go about my way. Not really changing anything. Staying the same, just a different body. I learned the hard way over the years it just does not happen that way. Not with healing of this kind. This healing brings about major change. Major transformation. That is why, IMO, most healing fails for people. They just do not want to change. They do not want to confront themselves. They do not want to take down any of the walls the put up. They want to remain the same.
It took me 8 years on this healing journey to learn that truth. That I had to change. That I really had to become something other than what I currently was. I could no longer live that life. It had reached its end. In the Tarot we would call it, the Death card. For it truly was like dying. Just without the physical loss of the human body. That is what energy healing such as Reiki is all about. Changing oneself in more ways than we can imagine. It’s not just about healing the body. While that does also come to us, just not always in the way we expect it to be. For me, it was about changing my diet. Eliminating foods that I could not eat and was sensitive to, and replacing it with foods that worked best for my body. It was the energy healing that I embarked upon that lead me to that path of changing up my diet and how I was living. That energy healing started with the use of crystals. I started working on my chakras, the energy centers of our body taught about in eastern medicine practices, through the use of crystals. Using colored crystals that connected to each chakra. To help start opening things up and getting the ball going. I would put some stones in a little pouch and put them into my pocket and carry them with me, all day, and night. Until I went to bed. Some people put them under their pillow while they sleep. I found that their energy would be too intense and keep me up late, or they would affect my dreams. Yes, crystals can affect our dreams. While they work their magic.
In time with the help of crystals, and healing my energy/spiritual/mental bodies, I would then take that further and go out and get a Reiki session done on me. Each one as incredible as the prior one. All opening up and clearing out so much form me. Each time feeling more and more lighter. Reiki and energy healing can be used on so much. From working on our own energy, to our pets. To even infusing the foods and drinks we consume. I have been using it to clear out my bedroom so it is nice and charged with the healing energy of love and Reiki. All helping to change me from the inside out. I have been attuned to Reiki, so be a channel for those energies. To allow myself to be able to channel them. So I am able to use them whenever I need to. On myself, or if I want to work on another, helping them with Reiki.
In between those three Reiki sessions I have also had crystal bowl meditations done. Which also work on the chakras as well as clearing the Aura. Those sessions have all been powerful in clearing things out and opening me up. Allowing me to become more in tune with myself. Helping me to become more confident in myself and in being me. Something I have struggled with for so long. Lately I have been working with Reiki to take down those walls that I have put up that have kept me safe but also kept me away from the world and others. It has worked well with taking those walls down. While I still have ways to go with that I have hope in the power of Reiki and energy healing in tearing down things that no longer serve my highest good.
Working on myself with Reiki, crystals, and energy healing has been so incredible for me. It has changed my life in so many ways. I am optimistic about what it can do for me and where it will take me. I know I have only scratched the surface of Reiki and energy healing and I look forward to where I end up with it.
The get up and dance edition.
This post here marks the 90th post on this blog. To commemorate I decided to go out for the 36th week in a row. 36 weeks. 9 months of weekly shenanigans. That is amazing!
This week was a fun week as I was all over the place. It started on Tuesday, which is known as The Flash Tuesday. Sadly, I did not get to see The Flash that night, but it was well worth missing it that night. I went out with some friends to Mastoris in Bordentown, NJ. It was a little dinner. Well, technically it was a LARGE dinner, but you get the idea of it. We had a lovely little dinner, and during the meal, we all felt the presence of a spirit that had come around when we were talking. From what we could gather and feel, the spirit was a male spirit. That lived around the 1800’s. A man of the land, not really a hobo, a drifter perhaps. We think he had lost his child back then. Before we sent him to the light to where he belonged. It was possible that another spirit was picked up as well. Of course we do not know much about the land to know who the spirit was, or validate our feelings/impressions. My friend lovingly, calls us the “spirit 5.” When we are together our energy just seems to bring forth such things.
After dinner we went to Halloween Street in Bordentown where the houses were decorated for Halloween. This years theme was spiders. Gross! Who ever picked spiders as a theme. The houses were fun to look at, and walk around. One of them, had a display of 400 or so carved pumpkins. All types of designs. I snag a few pics of them. My favorite had to have been Marty McFly and Doc Brown, and then the Starwars ones. Since Halloween was over they were giving away the pumpkins to anyone who wanted them and would donate the rest to be food for animals at a zoo. All in all it was a fun night out with friends. It’s always a fun time with us, together. Having fun. Whether it’s reading oracle cards or in this case, random spirit encounters. We plan to go check out Batsto cemetery next weekend, and I am looking forward to that one.
Wednesday night I had a third Reiki session and as always it was an amazing experience. Healing, and clearing out old junk from my self and my energy. All helping me to open up more and have a happier healthier life.
Which lead me to my Saturday escapades to romp around and have fun with. I had a sound healing session with gongs being done at the place I get my Reiki from. I had felt called to get that done. It was certainly an interesting experience feeling all the vibrations of the gongs being struck, and the energy vibrating through me. Another lovely healing session. I enjoy them all. They have helped me in so many ways. Of course they are also tiring when they are done as the body adjusts and heals. I was ready just to go to bed earlier tonight.
Before that I would decide to go to the movies and see Dr. Strange. Marvel’s latest flick. I went at a 10:40 am showing, and I honestly don’t think I have ever been to the movies that early before. So that was a nice new experience and the movie was a lot of fun. Certainly a very strange, see what I did there, and trippy movie to see.
All in all another successful and fun week. This coming week I have a workshop to attend on Friday and Saturday morning. It’s an Archangel Gabriel workshop, on 11:11. Ought to have a lot of good energy at that. Then some shenanigans with my friends. That I look forward to. Next Sunday there is a crystal bowl meditation that I will probably attend. I always enjoy those. Never know what will come up and open up within me.