I am still trying to grasp the fact that today is the second of September. It feels like this year just started, and within that time, I have taken two full vacations, and took myself to the Smithsonian. This year has been incredible for me, and I have so much going on these next couples months I can hardly wrap my head around it. I’m loving life. For the first time in my life I can actually say that and truly mean it. It is an incredible feeling.
With the beginning of a month it becomes a time to create a new day. A new beginning. A change. It’s a new everything. It’s up to us to do with it what we choose to. The other day when I was doing a daily card pull for myself, the card was Compassion. “I see and feel others’ points of view with forgiveness and kindness.” Then that same night a friend of mine did a pull for me, and out came, Compassion. Once may have been a fluke, twice in the same day, by two different people, not so much. When the universe talks to you, I have learned to listen. So this month is about Compassion for me. This is about learning to love myself fully, all my faults, and flaws, and accepting myself for who I am. For those that have suffered with anxiety that is one of the hardest things for us to do. Love ourselves. We start to hate and loathe ourselves and even life itself.
For me that hate and loathing turned into not believing in myself, and what I could do. Not thinking I was good enough. It did not help I have been on the receiving end of bad criticism that added to the fires of self-hate. The internet can be a cruel cruel place. When you are sensitive, like I am, you tend to take it personally at times. That was long before I got a thicker shell. So now this month is about healing all of that. All that has held me back in believe of not being good, not being worthy, and not being able to. One of the struggles with my anxiety over the years was an automatic saying I couldn’t do it. Now I am learning to believe in myself and being able to. It has improved my life in so many ways. When we find that love for ourselves we are also able to extend it to others. How we treat others can be seen as a reflection of how we treat ourselves. So compassion is also about being loving to others, especially those we do not know. As well as allowing them to have a valid say, and respecting their beliefs. Something the world needs more of.
So for this month I am working on loving myself more, accepting myself, believing myself more, and trusting, having faith in myself. I have set up my crystals, in sending out love to those who need it in this world, as well as myself. I have set up some Rose Quartz, and Selenite as can be seen in the picture up top. Yes, I am in to crystals, in fact, I have not mentioned it before, they have been a key component to me changing my life around. They have helped pave the way to get me to where I am today. I have not mentioned it before on this blog, as I was not sure if I wanted to say something like that. Out of fear of what others would say. This month is about love for myself and sticking up for what I believe in, and being loving and accepting of whom I am. So as such I am embracing more and more of myself, and becoming more and more whole.