While I have been very active these days it’s been a good time since I got out there and really took myself on an adventure. Mind you I have done plenty, I went up to the Poconos again and went horseback riding for the first time in my life. So I am remained busy and remained going places. It was nice to get back out there and really take myself on an adventure, as I have missed it. This week I happened to be on vacation, and did not have anything really planned. So I decided to make the best of it and get myself back to those adventures that really turned my life around.
I have gone to a few places this week so far. I went to a local lake and enjoyed the fresh air and water. I headed back to Redbank Battlefield, which I have been to many times in the past. There is something about that place. It draws me to it and I love being there. Down by the water, and just enjoying the sights. The main house, Whitall manor, is an interesting place. I have only been in there once, but this time, was the first time being there, since I become more open, and embraced my gifts instead of shutting them down. The house itself has so much energy. Just being near it, you can really feel it. As soon as I got near the home, I could feel it. It really hit my right in the chest. There is also a sense of sadness within the energy. It has been said, the place is active with spirits, that have died during the Revolutionary war, when the house was used as makeshift hospital. It is said to be more active in the higher floors, that were not open to the public when I went in there once last year. I need to get back into their, and really check it out, and see what I feel and pick up. That ought to be an interesting time.
So my next adventure that I had taken, was to Smithville Historic Park, in Mount Holly. I had been to this place once before. Which you can read about, here. This place was my first stop when I started my adventure of going out so very long ago, back in March of 2016. 15 months ago. It was nice to go back to where it all started for me and just take a stroll through it all again. I have come such a long way in the past 15 months, to be back to where it all started was kind of a surreal feeling. When I took that first adventure I was very nervous. While I had been making great strides in my health and healing, and had just come off of a week in the Poconos, it was different to take myself out, on my own, into an unknown territory and continue to do it weekly for a year.
I had much to learn and open up to during that journey. While I was feeling better physically I still had to work on the mental aspects of my healing, and in working on the fear and anxiety that was controlling me and my life. So I came up with going on a weekly journey to push myself into new places in life. Something I had never done before. It wasn’t something that just happened for me. I didn’t just get out there and all that fear disappeared, no, I had to work on it. I had to work through it. For me I learned the only way I was getting through it, was to go through it. To face it head on. Which to me, was ironic, because I had always struggled with that concept. I had always fought the idea of facing fear to heal fear. To me that was a crazy concept and I could never do that. I have learned through that journey that I was completely wrong with how I viewed things in life and my life.
For me, and I am sure many other people in the same shoes, I would spend countless hours asking for a miracle. Asking for a sign that we are being heard. Begging for help. Begging for the strength to get through another day. Begging for the courage to get through things. Begging for a miracle. Begging for help and healing. I was one of those people. I begged, and I pleaded, and hoped for a miracle. I hoped I would be given the strength and the courage to do it. To be able to live a normal life. And what I found, was surprising and shocking to me. I found that I had the strength, I had the courage, within me, all along. All I needed was the opportunities to see it myself. That was the greatest thing I found within myself through all this adventuring. Was that I could do it. I had the strength to do it. I was courageous and brave when in the face of scary things. I just had to believe in myself and what I could do. When I realized this truth within myself was when the real healing could occur. It was then that I could get out of my own way, out of my head, and allow myself to see things I never even knew existed within myself and within the world. It was then that my whole life changed and spiraled and snowballed into more and more.
My life has changed and improved so much and for the better in the past two years than I have ever seen in my life, for the entirety of it all. All because I dared to challenge the status quo of the life I created for myself. All because I knew I needed to and had to change my life. I had to changed everything. I could no longer sit idly by and let life pass me by. I could no longer not live life. And I was willing to do whatever it took to get there.
It was a triumphant moment in my life to return to where it all started, and this time, in a better state of being than when I first visited there. Where there was no fear about being there. There was no anxiety about how long I would be there. Or if I was able to do it. I was able to be there, be present in my adventure, and just enjoy myself and what I was doing. Walking, admiring, sitting on benches, and just enjoying life. It is a well earned victory for me. To enjoy life. To enjoy myself. Next time I return here I will need to take a tour of the mansion and the buildings, as I have not really explored them. I really spent my time walking around through the trails through the woods. Next time. There is now a next time. I can say that, and not dread it. I can enjoy myself. Finally.
If you were to have told me a two ago that one day I would have had my own table at a public event doing something, I would not have believed you. I would have thought you fell and bumped your head and was talking nonsense. If you were to have told me that I was going to be doing Angel Card readings for people I would have thought you lost your mind. Yet yesterday I did just that and it was no April Fools joke. It was real and it was spectacular.
Yesterday my friends at On Angel’s Wings was doing their first expo, and I somehow got it in my head that it would be a good idea for me to be a part of this event. At first I was not sure on what I was going to do. I have plans to do more Reiki energy healing this year so I was debating about having my table there doing mini readings, but settled on doing Angel Card readings instead. The Expo was being held at the Lyceum in Burlington, NJ. It was a lovely little building with a nice little energy to it for this first time event.
I will be honest and say that I was very nervous about doing this event and wanting to just back out of it. In truth I wanted to get to my car and just keep driving to Canada. Starting a new life of a Canadian lumberjack, being paid in Maple Syrup and Jelly Doughnuts. In the past the fear would have been that my anxiety would get the better of me, or my stomach would run amok and take me with it. Especially since the event hours were 11-6. 7 hours of being in one place would have been enough to send me to the bathroom having panic attacks, yet that was not what I was nervous about. My fear was that I would not be able to do the readings for people, I would get nothing, and not be able to do it. Making myself look bad and the people who host the event look bad. It’s amazing the fears that can run through our brains, more so, when you have struggled with anxiety your whole life.
Luckily my friends there could see that my energy was feeling a little frantic, and came over and comforted me and told me that I could do it, and two of my friends allowed me to do two quick little readings before the event started to calm my nerves and help me get in the zone. That really helped. My friends that I have met through this journey have literally been a godsend through all of this. Being their for support, love, and comfort. Without them I would not be where I am. Those two little readings really helped take the edge off, and helped me start to get into the zone. For when people really started to pile in and I started to do the readings and really get going.
Once again like it always is with my anxiety/panic that once it really happens it is never like it is in my head. Much like going to the dentists office. I was able to do 11 readings throughout the entire time I was there. I was calm, and relaxed, and really in the zone with it all. I met lots of new people, and had lovely conversations with people. Without a single freak out or panic/anxiety attack. I think I even got a lifelong friend of mine to really believe in what I do and am able to do. So that was a nice little added surprise to it all. I am very fortunate for this wild and crazy journey I have been on. There have been many, many low times, and now there are some incredible high times. I am thankful for it all. They have taught me so much about life and living and have given me so much in life. I would not be who I am today without them. This was an incredible step for me to go out and do an event all day. I was there from 9am until 7 Pm. 10 hours at one place. I would never have dreamed in my wildest dreams that I could ever do something like this. Yet I did it. I survive, and dare I say, I had an incredible time doing it.
I am not doing something I love, and sharing it with others, and loving every moment of it. One day perhaps I will do a talk about my journey and how I got here and share it with others so they too can live the life they want and deserve. If I can do it. Anyone can. My next event I will be doing will be in May, where I will be doing mini Reiki sessions. I look forward to that one and where the future will take me. During the event yesterday I was able to get a Tarot reading for myself, and she said this stuff that I am doing, will really take off for me. So I am looking forward to that and a very blessed future.
The ain’t no mountain high enough edition.
This past week has been an incredible one for me. It has had many ups, and downs, but they have all been worth it for me. So much was done and accomplished. It was also the week of Love, or commercialized love, in the form of Valentine’s day.
This week I spent a lot of time just hanging with friends, and working on our abilities together. It started with my development group on Wednesday, where we did some Angel Card readings for each other. Coming up in April, I will be having my first table at a Spiritual Expo, where I will be doing Angel card readings all day long. Never in a million years would I have seen that in my life, or would have seen this is where my year long adventure would take me.
Thursday was a little circle with some friends, where we are able to work more on our abilities with each other. I was also able to buy some more crystals. Buying some citrine, and some raw rose quartz. Of course it’s not natural citrine, and is heart treated amethyst. I do love some Amethyst. That group ended up turning into an impromptu Reiki session, where myself, and another Reiki master, did some Reiki healing, and some IET healing, on a friend of ours. I have never really done a session with another person like that before. So that was an interesting experience to be a part of. Now I’m looking to find a space to continue to do Reiki healing on other people. Working with Reiki has been so incredible, and wonderful to be a part of. To have people tell me after a session, that they feel so incredible, light, and so serene. Makes it all worth it to me. I am very blessed to be able to channel healing energy and help others with it. As it has helped me. So hopefully soon, I will be able to have a space to be able to do Reiki sessions on others.
Then Saturday when the weather was really nice out, I decided to head outside, and go someplace, for the first time in a while, to Red Bank Battlefield. I love it there. It is so awesome and peaceful. I have been there a few times in the past year. It was also one of the first places I visited when I started this journey. So it only seemed fitting that at the second to last week of it, I would return to the place that really started it all for me.
However I was not the only one who had the idea of getting out there Saturday. As this place was crowded, by far the most crowded I had ever seen it. Both lots for parking were full. I had to park out on the street. After walking around, I noticed every one walking around, staring at their phones. Before I could hear that familiar sound of, Pokemon Go. They were all out there trying to catch Pokemon. The young games, as well, as the older games. And the much, much, older gamers. Pokemon Go seems to reach all types of ages. I was not much of a fan of it, playing it only a few times when it first launched. Kudos to them to keep going at it, and still drawing people in to it. I do wonder would the same people have been out at the park that day, enjoying the weather, or were they only out to catch some Pokemon? I suppose on one hand it’s good that video games can be used to bring people of all ages together. At one point, walking the trail, I heard, “Charizard!” And watched the masses flock to that point. Or are we now at the apex of the Zombie Apocalypse, as we all become brain dead from staring at our phones all day, and the Terminators rise and enslave us all? Scary thoughts either way. But I had fun none the less.
This week now starts week 52, I am hitting the one year mar. I am so impressed and can not believe this day would have ever happened. That I could go from being a person who was indoors all the time to being outside at least once a week for a whole years. I have changed and grown and evolved so much from this journey and over the year of doing it. I don’t even recognize the little timid and afraid guy that started this all.
I can’t wait to see where it takes me in another year.
Yesterday I had the privledge of finding myself embarking on a mid week adventure with some friends. After the week I was having, I certainly needed it. After having to get up at 2 in the morning twice in a row for work, one being canceled from a now show, I certainly needed some fun. And boy did I get some. I almost did not make it there as you can imagine I was exhausted. Which was throwing my stomach off majorly and I just wanted to sleep. I am glad that I pushed myself forward with it. This whole journey has been about pushing myself, so I could not let myself be pushed back. I had to keep going, and boy was it worth it. It’s crazy to imagine how two years ago I would have allowed myself to be pushed over, and ran away from this. It’s nice to have stood my ground and went to this.
The night started out in Mastori’s diner in bordentown, where we all Meetup, had dinner, and enjoyed some laughs. There were many, many laughs had. When we are all together that is just what happens. Being around people like that, really bring out the best in you. We just raise up each other, and increase our vibrations from the fun we have. I truly think that is what helped me get through the night, when my stomach was off, and I was tired. It was so much fun with each other, that the energy we had, was so light, it radiated this warm healing energy, that just helped me feel better last night. When I got there, I was a little rough around the edges, but being around these wonderful people really helped me. I am thankful for that and staying when I was almost going to leave.
And then after dinner, we all headed over to Martel’s Christmas House, to look at and enjoy some Christmas decorations and lights. Only one of has had been there before and knew what it was about, the rest of us, had no idea. I don’t think we could have even imagined what this place would be like. It was incredible it truly was. There were so many decorations, and ornaments, and lights, it was truly breathtaking. What breath was left anyways as it was cold out there. From what I learned about this place is that there people run it, a family I believe. They start in September and just set it all up. I can not imagine the amount of man hours it would take to do something like this. They are truly dedicated to their craft.
We had a lot of fun walking around, laughing, enjoying each other’s company, and enjoying the festive lights. I am glad that I stuck with it and enjoyed a wonderful night out with friends. Something I truly needed it.
I feel much better today, happy again, and feeling light. I am continuing to work with and connect with Reiki and that is creating a wonderful sense of wholeness and health within me. As I work with those energies more, I will talk about my experiences in a later post. It was a fun night and tonight I will see some of them again for a holiday Meetup. This week started off rough and is getting much better. Then the week will end with the new Star Wars movie Rogue One.
To infinity and beyond edition.
This post is the 100th post on this blog. That is amazing in itself. I have stuck with this blog and have continued at it and kept on writing and learning and growing and adventuring. And saying “and” over and over. Next blog post will be about nothing but the conjunction “and.”
My weekly adventure for the week of 41 would see my running my second of two Holiday toy drives for Toys for tots. This week at the lovely Spirit Light Services center. Where I would be doing oracle card readings, with a few other card readers, who I can now call friend. They have been an incredible part of my journey and have taught and shown me so much. Where people could come and donate a toy and also get a card reading form one of us if they chose to do so.
We had quite a few people show up this week as well as last week, and some just came out to drop off toys for it. It was very humbling to see so many people be a part of this, to come out for the cause, to support me, and to help the kids. I am beyond thankful for everyone that helped or pitched in. Whether offering me the place to run this thing, offering to do readings, and just come out and donate. It was such an amazing thing to see and be a part of. To witness that much love was incredible and it was for a great cause. Helping to bring a smile and joy to a kid this holiday season. After dropping off the donations, I got to talking to the people that run the chapter for the county I live in. They told me that they have 17ooo families they are working with this year. That is so heartbreaking to hear that so many are in such a place in their life. I am glad that I could help out some families with our donations. I have never done anything like this, so to have so many come together, so quickly, to get this together and to get it off, was remarkable. It taught me and shown me a lot. Next year I hope to get involved with this type of stuff again and hopefully be able to do even more with a bigger plan with it with more time.
Speaking of next year it’s hard to imagine that there is really just about three weeks left of 2016. This year has been an incredible year for me. I have accomplished much and changed much about my life, my way of living. I will certainly write a bigger article about my wrap-up for the year 2016. Next year will be a busier year for me as I work to do even more. As I work to take myself out there and put myself out there more. I have many ideas and thoughts for myself with what I want to do with myself and take myself. Next year and the years beyond that I hope to see it slowly come into fruition. I am beyond thankful for this journey. I never saw this as my journey or even being here. So I am hopeful to where it will take me. Life is improving so much. I can not wait to see where it will take me.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me over the year, who has supported me and encouraged me. Thank you to everyone that has read this blog, or liked one of my posts, or shared it on FB. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. I love you all.
The Holiday Toy edition.
Another week down in the books and another week of adventures. This week marked the 40th week, which by my counts, is ten mounts of having fun, and enjoying life. That is a feat all on its own. Time is certainly flying by this year. This year was incredible and I am working, and will be working, to make 2017 much more so.
This years weekly adventure was a little different than my normal outings and was also me doing something new and going out of my comfort zones many times. Earlier in the week I had a fun meetup with friends, where we started at dinner, in a place walled Brickwall, and followed that out with some group discussion and chat, with a lovely bunch of people, that I have gotten the opportunity to meet and get to know this past year. Every time we get together we have so much fun. The energy is wonderful and much laughter is always had.
Then this Saturday was one of two Holiday Toy for Tots drives I was hosting this year. I have always wanted to do something like this but have never been able to. So this year I thought, now is as good a time as any to do one, so I put it in motion. Threw it out there, and was amazed at how many people jumped on board to help out with this, get involved with this, and just be a part of it. This week, On Angel Wings MM.LLC was gracious enough to allow me to use their store for this. I can not thank them enough for their kindness and their help with all of this. All of this was new to me. I had never done something like this. So I stepped out of my comfort zone many a time for this. Normally I am the one that just slips into the background and becomes a part of something. I’m not the one who starts something or takes charge, the lead, with things. My path has taken me more and more into new and unfamiliar territories as I grow and learn so much about myself. I will admit there were many a time where it would have been so much easier to just quit it all, call it off, and hide my head in the sand like an ostrich. But that is not what this journey has been about. It’s been about pushing myself forward in life and creating a new world/life for myself. I am glad that I kept moving forward with this and with my life. It is really opening up new doors and opportunities for myself.
For this Toy drive, myself, along with a few others, would be doing oracle card/tarot card readings for people that wanted them. It is amazing how far I have come with that. From being scared to doing them in public for others to now hosting an event where I am doing them for the event, to next year I will have my first table at an expo where I will be doing oracle card readings all day. It’s been such a whirlwind of a journey that has been incredible, and scary, and exciting all at once. I would have never really taken that first step if it wasn’t for my friend, and inspiration, Marie Gilbert, who encouraged me, and really pushed me into doing it. In fact everyone has been so supportive and encouraging with me through all of this which has helped me so much and helped me gain that confidence that I need in myself and being who I am, that I an not thank them enough for it. I truly would not be where I am today without them. Being around link minded people, who encourage me, and help me, has been the best part about this journey. They have always seen things within me, and believe in me, when I did not, and it has helped me in so many ways.
I had the opportunity to do a few readings for people yesterday that really connected and were well received, which made me feel good. One of the best parts of this journey is all the people that I meet and have met over the year. It is amazing the way you just meet people. Some that share the same things you do or are going through something similar to what you are. It’s as if the universe just lines up for that moment to meet these people, to share some wisdom with them, to become friends, whatever is needed in that moment for that individual. It is both amazing and humbling to be apart of it. Sometimes you become lifelong friends with these people and sometimes its only meant to be a brief encounter. Everything is exactly as it is meant to be.
The Toy drive was quite the success, we had many show up for it, and many toys were donated for it. The box upon when I left was overflowing with toys, and will continue to collect until the 9th, when I pick them up to get them to be dropped off to the local toys for tots branch. Next week I will be hosting another event at Spirit Light Services, where I will be doing more card readings, along with a few other talented readers, that I am honored to be alongside them for this.
I never expected myself to be in this place, doing things like this. I had no idea where this journey would take me, when I set off in March to do it. Now I can not imagine my life any other way. I have had fun, talked with, and met so many incredible people. That have forever changed my life and way of being. I am thankful and grateful for all of it. The ups and the downs. I would not change a thing. I am building a better life. For I know, deep within myself, that there is so much more to life and living and that I deserve so much more than I ever gave myself credit for. I am becoming more confident within myself and allowing myself to be more of me.
I look forward to where I am heading. I have lots of work to do to get there, but I am willing to work at it, and make those changes. I would never have gotten here had I not have taken that first step. Had I not have put myself out there and gone out. The journey of a thousand miles truly did start with that first step. I am thankful that I took that first step. That I found the courage to go out there. To have fun. To enjoy life. To live life.
The Burger Time edition.
Today marks the first time since starting my weekly adventures that I am writing about it the next week, on a Sunday. And it’s for a great reason. As yesterday’s adventures was pretty much all day. From 10 am, and ending at 10 Pm. I would not have ever thought I’d see something like that. What makes it even more incredible is that all of the things I did, involved other people. Most of my journeys in the start had been solo journeys, and lately many of them became group events. I am so thankful for this journey.
This weeks’ journey started on Wednesday where I went to a meetup with people from one of my classes. We had wonderful conversations, much of our talk of course, was the elections. So there was certainly a lot of heated energy with that one.
Then on Friday and Saturday I would attend an Archangel Gabriel workshop. Gabriel has been one of the Archangels that has played such a prominent role in my journey. And the way this all came together was incredible. Of course it was on 11-11 as well. So there was those energetic energies, on top of the approaching full moon, the largest full moon in like decades. Can’t wait to see that and get some pics. I have always loved the moon. And of course, Archangel Gabriel is the angel of the moon. No coincidences, right? The workshops were incredible, a night and a day, of some crystal bowls, great people, and a wonderful atmosphere. It’s amazing to see how far my journey has taken me and how far I have come with it. How much these people have impacted me and have shown me and helped me much.
After my workshop me and some friends, went to go check out Batsto Cemetery. That was an interesting experience. They tell me it was very, very active. I put up a lot of shields going out there. I guess it was the first reaction to such a thing. And those shields really worked, and really kept me safe. So much so that someone that was there with me could feel the shields. It’s always good to be able to have that validation that something is working like that. Of course with all that shielding I was not able to pick up anything really. The people I was with was using a spirit box, and it was able to pick up a few things, which was neat to witness. I’ve never really seen any of the equipment up close like that. So that was nice. After that we went to check out a another place that has spirit activity. Then we called it a night. It was a great night. I went completely out of my comfort zone, for the entire day. Even more incredible was that I had a passenger in my car the whole time. I don’t usually do that. I am very picky about people being in my car and to let my guard down enough, to relax enough, to allow another into my personal space, was great for me. It was something I really needed to remind me of all the fun that can be had within the world when I am not shutting it all down. So this week’s journey was huge for me in so many ways. It gives me hope in what I can do in my life.